it means one thing.

a year ago was the first time i felt your love.
your warmth.
i rememebred how it went.
cause every part of it was still clearly embedded in my mind.
how short a year has become.
but i still rememebr every move.
every word.
every feeling that i felt when i was in your arms.
it was the first hug we had.

on a less weird note.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
where you can go trick or treating.
have plenty of candy.
and go high on them!
and cam whore in your awesome costumes.

and tomorrow it will be all saints day.
for all the saints in heaven.
tomorrow is you day.

just like it was ours.

i have to go for mass later!
and amanda never reply me!
i thought that messages sent were meant to be replied?
boohoo.

don't say i never try.
cause when i took the first step to trying.
you simply blew me off.

i've got a weight off my shoulders.
i'm back in class.
scandals are going aound the class.
everyone say hip hip hooray!
but it has nothing to do with me.
just getting a laugh out of it.

its 8 more days to my birthday!
i shall sing my birthday song to myself 8 days from now.
and no one shall stop me!
i have to go to school la!
what the heck.
cause the zoo has left me.
and left me all alone.
how could you zoo?
you broke my heart!

people who are about to buy my present.
please let me know what you're buying.
so i can tell the other people not to buy the same thing as you.
haha.

a song to post?
none today.
cause nessa has no inspiration.
ok.
maybe now i do.
and this is for my friend who rocks shitloads.

seems like it was yesterday.
when i saw your face.
you told me how proud you were,
but i walked away.
if only i knew what i know today.
i would hold you in my arms.
i would take the pain away.
thank you for all you've done.
forgive all your mistakes.
there's nothing i wouldn't do.
to hear your voice again.
sometimes i wanna call you.
but i know you won't be there.
i'm sorry for blaming you.
for everything i just couldn't do.
and i've hurt myself by hurting you.
some days i feel broken inside.
but i won't admit.
sometimes i just wanna hide.
cause its you i miss.
and its do hard to say goodbye.
when it comes to this.
would you tell me i was wrong?
would you help understand.
are you looking down upon me?
are you proud of who i am?
there's nothing i wouldn't do.
to have one more chance.
to look in your eyes.
and see you looking back.
if i had just one more day.
i would tell you how much i've missed you.
since you've been away.
its dangerous.
its so out of line.
to try and turn back time.
i'm sorry for blaming you.
for everything i just couldn't do.
and i've hurt myself.
by hurting you.